lately, and by lately i mean this whole year, i've felt my life is at a standstill.  i have all these big plans set up in my head of getting a full time job or going back to school for a second bachelors.  i've applied to what feels like at least 50 jobs.  even though i love living at home, i really want to move on and move out or at least feel like i'm saving enough money to make that move.  at points like this where i'm neither applying to jobs nor classes, i feel like i'm at this standstill of not moving anywhere.  perseverance has not been on my side b/c getting no call backs or getting rejection letters in the MAIL is never fun.  i hate to admit that i just want my life to pick itself up and move forward with no effort on my part at all at these moments.  and although im grateful for a job, a roof over my head & my first bach.. ... ...even grateful girls need a future!